Self doubt to the summit - the rise of England's Smith

Self doubt to the summit - the rise of England's SmithImage source, Getty ImagesImage caption, England host Sri Lanka in the first match of the Women's T20 World Cup on Friday at 18:30 BST - every match of the tournament will be broadcast live on Test Match Special ByMatthew HenryBBC Sport JournalistPublished3 minutes agoCommentsLinsey Smith's shirt from her England debut has finally made it out from under her bed.For years, Smith, now the number one ranked T20 bowler in the world, kept it hidden away because of her complicated relationship with her first spell as an international cricketer.She made her England debut as a 23-year-old in 2018 but has spoken since about "hating" the experience. There were times Smith would check the weather forecast the night before a game and hope for rain."I feel guilty talking about it and saying it, but that's just me being honest," Smith tells BBC Sport."I'd put so much pressure on myself and kind of would spiral when things didn't go right. It would really affect me negatively."I'd think bigger picture like, 'this is terrible', 'this is so embarrassing', 'you're not good enough'."All of that self-doubt crept in."England will not enforce World Cup social media banPublished5 days agoNever any doubt about Knight's England spot - EdwardsPublished6 days agoSmith, now 31, played nine T20s for England across that first spell. She took 13 wickets, had a bowling average below 15 and an economy rate of little more than a run a ball.Many, possibly most, would view that as a success but Smith, who describes herself as a perfectionist, was unable to find the positives at the time. She then lost her England contract."It's hard to explain really but growing up as a kid, you have these goals to play for England," Smith says."Then you get there and you put all this internal pressure on yourself, which isn't...